I'll never get over you by alandra

alandra

It was a more difficult tale to tell than I expected it to be. Though some of the details were clear n my head-the day when I've met him; our first date; our future plans and goals-there was much else I could not properly remember. It was as though the experienced I'd strode through had seeped into my head, and had there drown a veil over my mind and much of what it contained.
It was easier said than done. More than a year had passed since you'd first made your way into my life, and countless things had changed. There were some sort of confusion on where you are and what am I doing here. So many distractions on my head, all keeping me away from sanity.
The great gray beast March had eaten me alive. Here I was, buried in the belly of that smothering month, wondering if I would ever find my way out through the cold coils that lay between here and Easter.
I didn't think much of my chances. More than likely I'd become so bored as the hours crawled by, that one day I'd simply forget to breath.
It was a monstrous month, that was for sure; a dire and dreary month. The pleasure of Christmas, both sharp and sweet, were already dimming in my memory, and the promise of summer was so remote as to be mythical.
I simply know that long before the sun came to save me, I would have withered away in the belly of the beast.
Then, you came and changed me and my perspective about life. My once boring life became an exciting adventure with you. The rapid pulsation and throbbing of my heart flashes back the moment we met. We are two opposites attract. I am the easy go lucky party goer. And you, the serious type of guy who enjoys my company. I still remember your distinct smell, your splendid set of brownish eyes clouding up by your glistening light brown hair had always seized my fascination. I've fallen for you so deep, that every time I close my eyes, all I see is you, your smile that took my breath away. I was in heaven when we are together, when I'm with you, I feel safe around your warm arms. We shared every moment that we are together, slowly, our relationship changed us both, making us a much more better individual. Our relationship lasted for 3 years, even as of this moment you're still in my heart, your memories keeps on coming back. I don't want to say that it wasn't meant to be. All I know is that we just need some space to breath, a time to reflect. Loving you is not a sin, no its not. To love you is all I ever wanted in this world. There's nothing to hurry, I know and I'm still willing to wait.
There is still pain, and the pain keeps on coming back, the day we have to part ways and say our goodbye's. You said: "I can't bear to see you in this tormented and grief-stricken state. I can't endure to see you suffering. All I know, I have given you the best day of my life. But somehow, our relationship wasn't meant to be."
It froze me, for one moment. I just felt my tears rippling down on my cheeks. I just stand, stared at you for one last chance as you walk away. Still, hushed and numb. It was the end of a wonderful journey.
I shouted your name, I shouted amidst the growing noise. You didn't looked back but simply walked away. I tried to call you, but my once loud voice is weakend by anguish and pain. I felt a cold sensation swept my entire body as I drew a deep breath.
Every now and then, I am seeing you- in my dreams and even in my waking moments. I couldn't take you off my mind. Your memories keep on coming, haunting my being. You... whom I always love.
Where ever you are right now, I wish and hope that you are fine and safe. I just want you to know that after all the thing happened between the two of us, you're still in my heart. I love you.

*sigh*

~alandra