Fan fiction, sekuel: The love of siam... TamaT

erickhidayat

Ku selesaikan dulu terjemahan chapter 3 dan 4, selanjutnya ku posting versi inggrisnya. Ini karena ku lg gak dapet kompi. Emailnya terlalu panjang, gak bisa di baca di hp semuanya. Gitu rencana ku.

blackorchid

sip. i'll be waiting

erickhidayat

Chapter 4 akan pendek kok, karena aslinya pun pendek

Ricky89

om bro postinya hp lagi yak...

gak capek om bro dr eng translate ke ind dalam waktu singkat... saluuut om bro

erickhidayat

Semua ku mampu lakukan atas nama cinta...(lebay jablay melambay mode: ON) HAHAHA HIHIHI WKWKWKWKWK

Dekisugi

Astaga... Abis pulsa seminggu notifikasi udah meluber kemana-mana. ) new story!! thanks udah mention!!

BTW, filmnya belom nonton..

Ntar bikin Bangkok trafic (love) story juga donk!!! plissssssss....

erickhidayat wrote: »

Semua ku mampu lakukan atas nama cinta...(lebay jablay melambay mode: ON) HAHAHA HIHIHI WKWKWKWKWK

erickhidayat

Chapter 5. Done


Mew is halfway between happy and dreaming to be with Aex, who fought so hard for him. He is lying in the bed, daydreaming what to happen between them.

His cell phone rang... Without thinking he grab the phone...

"Good Nite, sweet dream..."

"Mew....."

Mew is suddenly fully awake

"....Tong..."

"Thanks for the good nite Mew... That's so sweet from you, how are you?"

"....mmmmmhh not bad... It's been long time..."

"too long for you to wait, Mew."

Mew can't say anything, ...it's already too late... is what he says in his mind

"it's okay Tong, I understand it"
Is what comes from his mouth.

"I would like to meet you, Mew, when do you have time?"

Mew feeks want to decline Tong's offering, but...

"tomorrow I have rehearsal, the day after would be possible"
is what Mew comes up with.

The whole night long Mew barely sleeps. Too much awake after all these years of waiting and now he feels an empty joy, for he has tied himself to Aex. After his heart, he would run for Tong, but he still knows whom he is with now.

Mew is now confuse, after all this years of loneliness and what he had to going through just to accept Aex, now to see his prime love. He is dying to see Tong after all these years, but also afraid for the conflict that may arouse after he sees Tong

His rehearsal day the next day is not so smooth, Mew is caught in his imagination, picturing his next day with Tong.

"Mew, are you alright?"
"Sort of... I'll tell you after the rehearsal"
"ok, can you concentrate for now, the producer want a different text for the chorus"

Mew tries to get all his concentration, and concerned about Aex reaction upon him about to see Tong.

Some hours later the day's task was done, Aex ask Mew what has made Mew not in himself today.

"Tong called yesterday night, want to see me... Tomorrow"

Aex don't say a word. A splash of jealous going across Aex's mind, but not great enough to stop Mew. Aex became stiff, thinking he might losing Mew.

"Don't worry Aex, I'm still yours, and will stay that way. I know how to face Tong now..."

Mew looks directly into Aex's eyes, reassure Aex will not losing him.

"Thanx Mew, I love you, it would be hard to lose you"

"Mew, can I ask you one question?"

Mew still looking at Aex

"Do you still love Tong?"

Mew takes an unusual long time to answer

"Whatever I feel about Tong, I do have our love, I will..."
"Mew, it's nice said... But you miss my question..."

Aex looks a bit more sad, for he knows the answer, which is he still does.

"Aex... Don't be jealous with Tong, I will put myself not so easy to take, I know how you fought for my heart... I don't bargain my heart with... "
"It's okay Mew, go see him tomorrow, I will keep my distance..."
"Aex, i will not put your love at the second raw, I'm not that cruel..."

Aex is a bit enlightend to hear Mew's reassurance. Mew comes closer and hug Aex tightly, giving reassurance his heart is there with Aex to stay.

"I trust you, Mew"
Whisper Aex to his ear.

The next day, Mew make his way to Siam Square, with his heart pounding, and a bit exhausted for two nights he didn't sleep tight.

Mew wait for Tong as he reach the place, trying to be calm, looking around with his eye searching for Tong.

"I found you"

Mew was bit surprised to be tapped from the back. Finally, he see someone he has been longing for all these years.

They stare at each other, not able to say anything, Mew has his deeply hidden wish comes true, to see his other half, and Tong tries to keep himself calm since it's the first time for more than three years

"So long haven't see you Tong, where have you been?"
"I... Have been nowhere but home, caring for my family"
"Can we sit somewhere?"

Ask Mew

They found a cozy place to talk

"I'm sorry to have let you be alone for too long"

Mew doesn't know how to respon, his joy and his anger towards Tong are equally high, New seems to be too uptight at that moment. Instead, Mew keeps himself silent

"Mew, are you angry with me?"
"It's not about my loneliness, I have been lonely for too long, I barely notice it by now... It is about you love me, and let me wait in uncertainty..."

Tong know, although Mew say it in a mild language, it contains deep disappointment.

"I'm not blaming at you, Tong. I don't know what happen with you all these years"

Mew try to diplomatize, not to pinpointing at Tong all too sharp.

"I have to take care my mom and dad, it's still uncertain if for mom accept me as I am, dad makes his way out of his depression. I just reallize that I take too much burden for a son in family. I tried to be pillar for the sake of my family.... You know... It's tiring for me, I wanted to call you , but as long as I have to be a pillar, I'm not free to call and to be with you..."

Mew doesn't know how to respond, in his answer, his long waiting seems plausible, making sense for not able to reach for him that easy, but now, Mew has give his heart to someone else, what makes him feels guilty...

"I'm not here to judge you, Tong, but the things now are not as easy as once before"

"I understand that, I hope I can still have an access to you"

Mew smile at Tong, his courage to tell his relationship drop, for He is still bedazzled with Tong's charm, even more... With his new gained maturity Tong has more stronger impact on Mew. Mew's imagination is taking him too high by now.

"How was it Mew?"
Aex inquiry is unstoppable.

"It was fine, he talks about his family and his burden, makes his reason for his absent become convincing."

"Does he know about our relationship?"

"Not yet, at right time when he tries to talk about it I'll say it"

That doesn't leave Aex at ease, he sense his rivalry with Tong over Mew's precious heart.

"Aex, I know you must be jealous now, but despite me being mild with Tong that doesn't means he can get my heart as easy, three years of his absent is not easy to dismiss. I know how to put things at the right place, don't worry"

Other times, With Ying Mew can pour out all his anguish and his dilema

"If after me, i would go for Aex, Tong can't as easy reclaim your heart, although he can't be blame for letting you wait too long. But Mew, who is now your true love?..."

Mew doensn't have the courage to answer that question

"It's Tong, isn't it?"

Silence over them

"How should you take the responsibility over Aex heart? Why did you say yes if you still have Tong in your heart?"

"I don't want to disappoint Aex, Aex keeps saying he love me. He knows that I have Tong and he insist on waiting for me to be ready for him... Afterall I thought Tong might have given up on me..."

Silence over them

"Ying, what should I do now?"
"I would you listen to your heart, stands on your true love"
"I promised Aex my heart already, is it wrong?"
"Only you can answer that. Go for Aex...you have promised him, don't break his heart..."

Ying adds

"You'll lose your dream if yo do this. Are you ready?"

Mew can't response to Ying's words. At this time, Mew really feels torn spart between two boys

Meanwhile, Tong this time tries to stich back his relationship with Mew without knowing Mew has someone at his side. He text Mew and calls Mew to meet him, but Mew doesn't give in. He remains faithfull to Aex. While Mew is with Aex, he seems to be a bit less happy, but yet his desire to let him be available for Tong remains impossible. Aex have not yet known Mew loves him for his hard determination, not pure love as Mew feels towards Tong. What burdens him is that Tong hasn't know all of these, and Mew still let Tong alone assume Mew is still available for him. Mew hasn't even tell him his burden of waiting for him so long and the feeling of missing him, getting astray from his hope towards Tong.

Mew is uncertain what to do next.

erickhidayat

Chapter 6 & 7. Done


"Tong, I understand your absence is something burdens you too, but now...."

Tong didn't reply, staring at Mew

"... There is someone who has filled that hole..."

Tong gets so surprised but managed to keep himself cool although his heart is now on full heat

"What do you mean? Someone in your ...."
"Yes, while you were away, I got myself so low, he keeps his wish although he knows I still love you. But now, I have given my heart to him"

Tong tries to keep his voice calm, but his voice indeed trembles a bit

"Who is he?"

Mew doesn't answer immidiately

"It's my best friend, Aex"

There are no words to describe Tong's condition at that moment, he feels terrible, he feels his passions for Mew means nothing now, like something is taken away from his heart, and now his heart has a hole. He doesn't expect Mew would give his heart to someone else, he thinks all the time Mew is him to own only.

"I'm sorry, Tong, I do love you, but Aex has been here with me all the time."

It seems like a wrong excuse from Mew

Tong can't think straight now, he is picturing Mew hands in hands with Aex... His heart chilled.

Not long after that, Mew joined the studio session for the upcoming album, hinted to Aex that he has talked to Tong. Aex is relieved, while inside Mew, he is still picturing Tong's face at the confession, especially when he saw Tong went his way. Somehow he feels guilty for him.

The insidence doesn't stop there with Tong to accept Mew's new status, but more, Tong is not to stay cool with this, he is now determined to reclaim Mew.

Back at home, Ying as always stop by to give Mew a bit of human warmth

"Ying, I had a difficult talk with Tong"

That statement instantly grab Ying's attention.

"Have you then explain your status?"
"Yes...."
"But what?"
"Tong .... It's him i worry about this time..."
"I can guess... He will not stop chasing you"
"I'm worried about Aex too, how he will handle this"

Not long after, Aex arrive at Mew's, Ying about to go home to give them privacy

"Stick around Ying...you're good friend of us... Hey... Let's join the snacks...

The situation lighten up a bit, they have a fun small talk. For a moment Mew push his anguish by side and tries to get comfortable with Aex, while Ying lightens up the house.

Chapter 7

For the following weeks Tong keeps texting Mew. At first Aex doesn't notice, but still able to notice Mew's cell phone beeping more often. Aex still hold his inquiry, although he could guess it's Tong who text Mew. Mew tries not to get too distracted from Tong's message, but to dismiss them is also too cruel. He has no choice to reply and make Tong see that he now is Aex's partner, and will not be available.

One day, Mew get a text from Tong, wants to meet with Mew. After many rejects and persistency of Tong, Mew agree to meet him. For that, Mew wake Aex's jealousy,

"Mew, it's ok to see Tong once a while, I hope you can put yourself properly... I..."
Aex lost his words, so many words jammed in his mind, clouded by his jealousy.

"Aex, I'm yours now, I will see Tong to show him my position, not to tie back some old story. I can't deny my feelings for Tong, but surely I love you Aex..."

Mew stare at Aex's eye, approach him, put his arm on his shoulder, hug him. As Aex feels he doesn't want to lose him, he holds Mew so tight, for the fear of losing Mew someday...

"Mew, I will sacrifice anything to deserve your love, I hope..."

"Aex, I am yours now... I'm not available to Tong..."

The next day, Mew then at designated time meets Tong, this time Mew has a firm determination to stand on Aex behalf.

Tong is already waiting for Mew. Instead of beautiful innocent smile like in the past, both of them show an uneasy smile.

"Mew, please forgive me to have you waited so long, I do only love you, no one else. Is there any chance for me to get back to you?"

"Tong, it's hard to say yes for me. I have waited too long, your absence has lead me to take on Aex"

"Why him? Am I not good enough for you now?"

Mew wait a brief moment

"You have been always my greatest love, you have protected me since school year, but since Christmas I practically had to guard my love for you all alone..."

"Mew, I had to take care of my family, mom still needs me, dad is recovering, I need time to let our love bloom at the right time..."

"Tong, you will always be the love of my life, but I have given
My heart to Aex, after what he has done and how much he hoped for me...."

Mew can't go on, seeing Tong's eye gets moist.

"Mew, I have waited also for our turn, why now this?"
Tong's voice tremble

"I'm sorry, Tong, I'm now Aex's partner..."

Both of them are caught in strangled conversation, yet in Mew's heart there's s little spark for Tong. With years passed, Tong has beem transformed into a mature one, who now able more to envelope Mew.

Mew tries hard to resist Tong's charm. He has to think hard about what Aex has suffered to get his love. Their conversation ends up without any resolution, Tong seems now won't give up, while Mew tries himself to stick with Aex love.

The conversation admitttedly has shaken Mew's heart a bit and with Tong insisting on texting Mew bring the relationship in crisis. For a while Mew gets undecided between Tong and Aex, waving his heart between Aex and Tong. Mew even thinks to leave Aex for the sake of Tong, if not the memories of how Aex cried when he assisst Aex as he was ill.

Aex become alert as Mew begins to get more often sunken in his own dream, instead converse with him. Aex initially doesn't want to interfere, but step by step Mew is getting drifted apart, Aex begins to think about losing Mew prematurely.

Indeed, Mew still has his love for Tong, while his love for Aex is based on compassion. Worst to happen, Aex accidently read Mew's message, and persuade Mew to be open. Mew then given no option but to say no to Tong, something he uttmost unwilling to do. But now he hasno other options left

erickhidayat

Chapte 8 - 9. Done


Tong didn't expect to see now Mew is happy with someone but him. He still can't believe to hear Mew said those words. He never has that image in his mind that Mew could belonging to somebody else, but now Tong has to see much to his bitterness, how he has lost Mew as Mew now become Aex's own. Tong has fought so long for his love for Mew to be accepted by his mom, until her yes become a genuine yes, but now Mew let him deserted.

Every day he lock himself in his room, taking pity on him, his thought wandering far where the things were a lot simpler, as boys where they used to be together, where he used to protect young Mew, where he got a shoulder to cry on, now the picture is vanished.

His heart gain more an more pain, much to be added that he now feels being left alone. He doesn't shed tears, for he had wandered too far in the boulevard of the broken dreams, as much as he gets lost there, he trap himself in a world where he at one side tries hard to keep his heart and hope alive, but at other end kills it for he feels he has nothing more to lose since he had lost Mew to someone else.

Slowly Tong goes the wrong way, trying anything just to hide his wounded heart. He pass his way with old friends from his schoolyear, hanging around killing time, beginning drinking, smoke, then... The drugs.

Only drugs keeps his inner pain away, where he can touch nirvana, halucinating to have Mew as his own, the other Mew, which he perceive it as real. Althogh his soujurn with the drugs has not taken long time yet, but his halucination has started long time ago, where Mew finally text him: "please let me alone, I have someone now. Hope you understand". That fatefull text seeps through Tong's soul, creating a deep void in his heart, quickly and desparately he tries to fills that void with anything available at his reach. To his unfortune, it is drugs, introduced by his friends, who quickly fills his heart, creating a new platform to correct all his wrong, and begin everything new. This beautiful fatamorgana, become Tong's only refuge from the harsh real world.

The first time he feels like seeing nirvana, for a brief time he forget his broken heart. He only sees bright light and feels he was free from his sorrow. He is searching here and there, but there is Only white fast land and he's floating over it.

The next time he goes fly, he is determind to find Mew, instead of seing Mew, he find Mew as a young boy, sitting at the river bank. As he tries to talk to him, young Mew suddenly smiled and run away from him, cheerfully laughing

By the next time he began to use the drugs to picturing what he reaaly needs, Mew. In his daydream, nurtured by the drugs, he then find Mew, completely available for him alone and not for others. There then in his nirvana, he dates with him, in a world totally for his own, he has Mew for him only, undisturbed by Aex, nor by anything that would cloud their relationship. Everytime he flies, he is hallucinating Mew lays beside him, hug him, need him, he binds Mew to him, love him, be close to him and more, he is united with Mew. Tong gets more drifted apart from the reality, with the help from drugs he fulfills his dream, not realizing what is taken away from him slowly. The drugs only amplifies his daydream and to get away from those drugs means to lose his "own" Mew. For now he become obsessed with the drugs, his only gate to date with "his" Mew.

"TONG.....what happen with you ???"
His dad found him lying unconscious, even shaking his body didn't make him comes back.

His dad see the things around Tong, and step back as he see some needles lying on the floor. He call for mom and as fast as possible they bring it to nearby hospital.

Few days later they got the dark truth, Tong's blood contains dosis of prohibited drugs. The doctor then arrange the transfer to rehab centre which is arranged within weeks to come. Good for them Tong just escape the justice process, also with the help of the doctor's prescription the transfer get done smoothly.

"Tong, please understand our decision to put you here, we're not punishing you, we want you to get better, we want you to have a good life, good future..."
Sunee tries to persuade Tong since he show his resistence, tries to go home.

Tong keeps himself absent minded, with a hollow look in his eyes he and his mind is wandering somewhere, where he suggest himself together with Mew.

"Tong.... Tong... Are you listening...?"
Sunee become desperade. Tong slowly look up into Sunee's eye. She looks into his son's eye, a vacant look from Tong starrig at her.

"good life for who..?"

Sunee lost her words. After a while, Sunee doesn't get any reply from Tong, she decide to leave him in the rehab. She walks away with the doctor accompany her.

"Doctor, concellour, please help my Tong. He's my only child now. I don't want to lose him."

"Don't worry Mrs. Sunee and Mr. Korn, we'll help him as good as we can"
Answer the councellor.

Tong was escorted to his room, and after the nurses left him alone, he become excrutiatingly alone. For weeks to come his loneliness cause him to lock himself tightly, and his alienation towards the concellour makes him even more locked up. He is waving around between the need to speak with someone to unload all his burden and to share his inner pains and wounds and his reluctance towards foreign people who tries to acces his privacy. It would take him long journey of pain and sorrow to enable him finally to open up and to cry for help.

The first days is very painfull for Tong to get rid of those needles, each time his body shows bad reaction upon the absence of those substances, even as he then scream, calling out Mew, many times when his body trembles so badly demand the stuff.

The councellor help him to get to the matter, while the first weeks Tong doesn't show much cooperation clouded by his halutination and his lost of "his" Mew.

While being alone in his room, Tong often pictures Mew and a strong self suggestion that Mew is punishing him, leave hin, let him down as a revenge, while he is picturing a different Mew somewhere out there inside his mind, ... His nirvana...

Tong by now has been taken away from drugs, the rehabs process has progressed. But what he fears now become true, for the more he take his sense to the real world, the more he feels the loss. Now, every day he become more conscious about Mew belongs to someone else. Many moments Tong become force to tears, sometimes in the midst of sobbing, he cries out Mew's name, hoping Mew would coming and get him out if these misery.

The detoxification process is not that difficult, for his body hasn't been exposed too long to the drugs, but his psycological realm suffers more bad damage. Beginning with his burden to be the pillars of his family which caused him to have lost Mew, Mew become Aex partner, Mew's rejection. All these stirs his mind.
He shows his introverted character with the councellor at first, much to his irritation to open up his pain to someone he just meet. Many session with the concellour end up without anything usable.

"Mrs. Sunee, I have tried to talk with him, but he seems to lock up so tight. The result of detox proces is quite promising, for he seems to be exposed for not too long. But the cause for him to take on the drugs has prooven to be a difficult task for me to uncrack. I can only guess, his problem might have started long before his drugs issues."

Sunee is listening concernly, then she starts to reply

"Actually, years ago, I discovered him with his friend... together and I didn't approve it"

The councellor is now getting a bit light to the matter

"He was close, at least what I saw that day, to have a love... with another guy... so I talked to his friend... and so it began..."

"Mrs. Sunee, how Tong react at your precaution?"

"For a while he lost himself with his friends, but eventually he showed me that his feeling towards his friend is quite genuine. I tried to show my acceptance...but after that his dad is slowly recovering from his alcohol addiction, and still not ready to leads the family. I'm fine with it, but Tong then shows his strange attitude after christmas three years ago"
Sunee go forth with the story.

Sunee then talks about the lost of the older sister, father getting depressed and went alcoholic... She tries to give clues to the doctor for the hope, the concellour will be able to approach Tong.

But for now, his family support doesn't prove to be much of help as the concellor suggested at the beginning. Tong feels his dad has more favor to his missing sister, while seems to have neglected Tong's presence though these years, worse, to hear Tong say those words is too much for the recovering father. Sunee tries to gether senses through Tong's suffer, only after many session with concellour she then knows what really happens.

One event Sunee then for real see that Tong's love for Mew once she prohibited, is the only thing Tong needs, and that needs has carried him far away beyond her reach. She and Korn arrived one morning to visit Tong, thinks wants to give some food, snaks, vitamin, etc to show her care.

"Mr. Korn, Mrs. Sunee, terribly sorry.... I'm not prohibiting you from seeing Tong... It's just...."

Sunee and Korn become agitated

"What happen to my son?"

The doctor seems to have lost the words

"Tong is not in optimum condition right now..."

"What happen doctor? What happen?"
Sunee is close to tears.

"Tong is in detox process, and it is natural that his psychological realm gets shifted, for..."

"Please tell me .... What is happening?"

After so much pressure, the doctor finally give in

"Tong is losing his world because there is no more drugs, and right now he is not able to discern between his sense of reality and his dream. If you see him now, I'm deeply concern of your reaction. We do not show this state publically"

"I'm his mother, let me see him"

"If you insist, but please be strong for whatever you may see"

It's the doctor's turn to get tensed.

"Follow me then"

They follow the doctor through several lane, and from the distance they can hear faint scream from one of the room. As they walk they hear the scream become more louder and clearer. Sunee can barely hold her tears and her body trembles....

"Meeeewwwww..... Don't leave meeeee.... I need youuuu.... Meeeewwww....." ( Tong screams and sobbing)

"Please calm down Tong, you will soon see him..."

"Noooo... Don't take away my Mew from meeeee... You cruel people.... Have mercy on meeee... Meeeeeewwwww Meeeewwww, where are yooouuuu? Don't leave me pleeeaasssseeee.....aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! (loud sobbing and his scream are heard one after another, clearly audible for the three of them, eventually his cry becone fainter and more quiet)

It is too much for Sunee to bear, she breaks down on the floor

"Tong... Please forgive me... Please forgive me..."
Sunee cry so loud, makes her words sounds terribly bitter for Korn to hear. Korn can't help himself but weeping together with Sunee. Korn for the first time get the sense of what he's been missing. Now, with his attemps to quit alcohol halfway to succes, he is now more determind to be a real father. It hurts him to see his family breaks down this way.

It takes times for Tong to get his senses of what is happening to him, and more time to be comfortable with the concellor, especially he who tries to get his privacy exposed. First sessions are very unbearable, thinking a stranger want to know his life. After holding his excrutiating psychological pain and so long he kept his love for Mew all alone, he then finally take it all out, since he has become closer to the concellour. Now the concellour is able to get a full picture of Tongs psychological journey.

At the session with the parents, Sunee and Korn are exposed with the whole truth, Sunee, who has known this issue before is not taken by surprise, but for Korn, it's a painfull wake up call, of what he has been missing through all these years. Korn himself has tried hard to be cured from his alcohol addiction, is more and more in charge at home, slowly taken back his role as father and chief commander of his family. His own life's lesson, much to Tong's fortune, has enabled him to accept Tong's sexual orientation. But for Sunee, the next step is not yet certain, what to do. The concellour has hinted her to Mew, Tong's greatest love, and she become chilled with the thought of what she needs to do.

erickhidayat

Chapter 10. Done


Aunt Sunee arrived at Mew's house early evening, Mew at that time is alone after Aex stayed with him the whole afternoon earlier.

"Aunt Sunee, how are you? Long time I haven't see you"

Mew greet her

"Hai Mew, how are you doing?"
"I'm fine, thank you Aunty. Please come in"
"Thank you...."

Sunee hesistate, then her face shows a depressed smile

"The last time I came here years ago, I talked about you and Tong..."

Mew become unease while Sunee doesn't quite know how to tell her intention

"Aunt Sunee, how is Tong doing now?"

Aunt Sunee growing more depressed

"I don't know how to say it...Mew"

Mew's anguish grows, he sense something bad happen to him

"I need yor help, Mew..."

Sunee is inch away from her tears

"As mother, we naturally think every boy belongs to every girl, married, carry on the life as we do. I didn't axcept Tong having anything with you back then... As we try to reconciliate with each other, Tong shows me that what he feels about you is something I feel genuine. After June's depart, Tong tries to unite us... He take the part where he keeps us together, heals each other wounds, a task beyond his age, while I and his dad tries so hard to get back on track."

Mew is moved as he listens to Sunee's explanation

"I don't know exactly what happen with Tong in recent time, but we noticed he become sad. It seems like a candle which has burnt out, his flame is going dim and dimmer. We became aware of it after the things going far too late. We didn't knows that he also needs something to light up his soul...someone he love to support him. We have tried to give him happiness with what we can give him, but somehow it's not what he really needs. Often he lock himself in his room all the day long, barely eats anything, untill four month ago his dad found him uncontious...."

Sunee tries hard to hold back her tears, Mew sensing something happen with Tong, getting nervous

"Aunt Sunee, what happen with Tong...??"

With his eyes staring at her

"One day his dad found him uncontious in his room... With a lot of needles..."

Sunee begins to cry, Mew listening with more anxoiusness

" We bring him to the hospital, after his blood test we found out what we never hope that such things could ever happen to him..."

Mew has at gotten very nervous at that moment, while Sunee already cries

"He has been on drugs..."

Mew jump out of his chair... Too much caught by surprise to say anything

"I.... I'm sorry to hear that, Aunty, I'm really sorry"
"He has been transfered to rehab centre. There, after many session with concelour, we got the real reason of what is happening with Tong"

Mew feels guilty in his heart for having choose Aex, he never imagine that Tong could have ever gone that far, after he lost Mew. In a sense, Tong's suffering is the reflection of Mew's suffering's too years earlier.

"Mew, I now realize, Tong really loves you genuinely from his heart. At first I don't want to accept this.... Mew, I'm so sorry.... I apologize for have taken Tong from your live..."

"Don't be Aunty, I understand, no mother is willing to have a gay son, I do symphathize with you, even if I have to lose something precious in my live"

"Mew, Can I still ask you something?"

Mew hesistate

"I ...."

"Tong really needs you, please go back to him, what kind of relationship you'll have with him, as long as it can make him happy, we will be happy too...."

Sunee said those words in the midst of sobbing. Mew contemplates on Sunee's words. He's beyond words at that moment. He feels torn apart between Tong, his love of his live and Aex, who has done everything to get him...his tears falls on his laps, a deep feeling of relieve, that Tong still loves him, having not search for him doesn't mean Tong was happy as he thought.

"Aunt Sunee I terribly sorry, I am now in a relationship with other.... It will no be easy for me to..."

"Mew, I'm sorry to have caused you misery in your live. I have sensed your love towards Tong back then, but took me too long to recognize... Mew, if not for me, do it at least for Tong...he constantly calls on your name when he sleeps or in bad condition, I can't stand it that he suffers, all his cries calling out your name, that much of suffering just to be with you.... Please Mew....... "

Sunee tries to hold herself together

"He really loves you, he just suffers too bad of losing you... Punish me whatever you wish, but please don't punish Tong... He loves you... HE NEEDS YOU RIGHT NOW"

That words cuts deep in Mew's soul... Mew by then can't help but weeps

"I know that you love him... Don't you?"

"I'm not intend to punish you, Aunty and much less Tong, but my relationship with my loved one is kind of solid one... Eventhough deep in my heart I will always love Tong"

19.04.12

"Aunt Sunee, I will surely visit Tong. Don't worry, I will stand by him"
Say Mew diplomaticly, and Sunee give him the address

"Thank you Mew, I appreciate this, remember, I and my husband will approve your relationship with Tong, at least you can be there for him. I will go back home first then"

Mew accompany Sunnee to the door and she walk into her car.

Mew doesn't quite know what to do, his inner battle has begin. Few days passed, he still struggling to find the right word to talk with Aex, for he knows, this will hurt Aex quite bad, and it's more difficult to see what shall happen next after he sees Tong. Sunee's words still echoes deep inside his mind: "... He needs you right now"

erickhidayat

Chapter 11 & 12. Done


"Aex, can we talk?"

One evening Mew with Aex as they are having dinner in the town. Aex doen't reply, just look itno him in the eyes.

"....."
"What is it, Mew?"
"Something happen to Tong, something bad..."

Aex begin to sense that this conversation has something to do with their relationship.

"I heard from Aunt Sunee, Tong is rehab centre..."

Aex surprised

"What happen? Is he ... On drugs?"
"Yes... I think Tong might have the need of me, to ..."

Mew want to carry on with his words, but get stucks to see Aex's sad expression beneath his smile. Mew know, this will be the hard competition between Aex and Tong. Mew is sad to see how Aex would handle the fact.

"It's allright Mew, visit him, I'm sure he needs you right now"

Aex tries to be dilomatic, but he feels himself helpless, he knows that deep inside Mew's heart, he still loves Tong more than him and is about to lose Mew bit by bit.

"If you need me, we can go together, Mew"

"That would be nice if you want... Aex... I ...."
Mew lost his words, knowing what Aex would feel

"Aex, sorry for this..."
Is the only words what Mew can manage to speak out.

"It's okay, Mew... It's all right with me, I'll stand strong"

For the rest of the day, Mew can't think straight, he tries to keep his commitment to Aex, but deeply touched by Tongs suffering. He knows, he has hinted Aex that he will always love Tong, but he also has given hope to Aex. Now, he has to choose who he will let go. If he let go Tong, this will crush Tong, but if he choose Tong, Aex will be hurt. Mew doesn't want to have all that happen. Some way he wished he didn't give Aex hope, if he knew this would happen

Not long after that, Ying as always drops by Mew. As always Mew tells her most of the thing. Ying has trasnformed herself into more mature girl, able to keep her mouth, become her friends favorite to get around. She in Mew situation take the blame for herself for have encourage Mew to take on Aex. Mew quickly dismiss the tought, since the decision is made on Mew's consideration. But the two of them know that Mew got to go back to Tong.

The next day, Mew contact Sunee, arrange the visit. The visit is then arranged two days after. That two days just bring Mew to his anxoius...

At the day, Sunee, alongside with Mew, Aex and Ying make the visit. As they enter the rehab centre, Mew's heart tremble, thinking that Tong suffers this much just for him. He doesn't know whether this is flattering or devestating. As they see the doctor, they are told that Tong's physical condition is progressing, but the psychological condition suffers a void, due to his unfullfilled wish. Mew know what Tong needs exactly.

As they walk along the lane, Mew become agitated, Aex tries to calm him down, although Aex began to fear that his worst thought he has always keep in the corner in his mind.

They then reach the room. The doctor tell them that Tong is having sleep. At the click sound of the door handler, Mew seems to jump in his heart. They enter the room, and indeed, Tong is sleeping. Mew's can barely keep his tears upon seeing a thinner, paler Tong, far from Tong who has always been his guard, the one who has always protected him. Now he become the person Mew got to guard, the person Mew needs to protect. Slowly Mew's tears melt, come down the cheek. He keep standing still, not able to move even the slightest of his body. Aex knows what that means. Ying is suprised and somehow feels guilty for her favour towars Aex when she and Mew had the talk that time.

Sunee slowly approach Tong, walks gently to his bed. She keeps a look at Tong, touch his right arm. Tong slowly awake

"Tong... "
Her soft voice slowly wakes Tong.

"Yes mom..."
Tong reply, doesn't take notice of Mew and Aex, his eyes keep staring at his mom.

"You have visit"

Tong look around, and there, his other half still looking at him with his eyes gotten already red.

"Mew...."
Said tong faintly.

Mew can't hold it any more, he begins to weep, sobbing, while Tong, after having gone through dark hours finally have Mew this time just in person, no fatamorgana, no nirvana, just Mew in full flesh and blood. Tong can't hold his emotion, he starts to cry.

"Mew... Is it you?"
Tong barely can hold his tears, knowing he now doesn't need all those drugs to be with Mew, now standing in real in the front of him.

"Tong... Here I am..."
Mew goes slowly approaching Tong, within meters, Tong reach his hands, so weak, wants to feel his Mew. Mew responds, reach his hand to Tong. Their finger touch each other. As if there were a huge electrical current flows through their body, they melts, the sobbing getting louder, they just let go every bit of their emotion, they don't care how many person inside the room, they claim each other just with one single language: language of love... And that love envelopes them so tight, leaves no room anymore for doubt.

Mew halfway reach at Tong's face from the height, wants to kiss him, but he just manage to kiss Tong's forehead in the midst of Mew's heavy cry, makes Mew's body shakes heavily. Tong, for the first time since years, touched by Mew, hugs him so tight with all power still left in his weakened body, is losing himself, sobbing, crying at height of his emotion, utmost happy to feel, to touch, to have Mew, now in his very presence, alive, breathing for him. The sight is heartbreaking for those who see this view, Sunee, Aex and Ying

It breaks Sunee's heart to see their love still holds through all the distance and through all obstacles. She now believe Tong's love for Mew is indeed real. Now her yes to Tong become a genuine yes for two of them. Her doubt and her prejudice falls upon the sight of them.

It was too much for Aex too bear. In his mind, in his eyes he has already lost Mew. Now, he get the full version of Mew's answer:
"Yes, Mew still love Tong, not him."
That breaks his heart.

Ying for the first time see that same sex love between Mew and Tong is indeed real, goes beyond sexual attraction. Ying has understood their love, but hasn't seen this kind of deep affection. Ying too, is moved to tears to see their suffering all these years.

They let their emotion go down a bit, regain back controll, talk and empty chats, and after that they parted to let Tong continue his therapy.

Back in the car, Sunee talks to Mew:
"Mew, thank you for having brought back my Tong..."
Said Sunee with shaken voice. Aex stars to feel unfitted in the situation. Sunee drop them at Mew's house, and the rest of the day become very silent between them. Ying this time is still moved, not able to lighten up the atmosphere as she usually does.


Now, it is the point of no return for Aex. He has seen the naked truth, Tong is still Mew's greatest love. Aex consciously let Mew alone at first, to let Mew take care of Tong, and also to prepare himself for the big desicion for their relationship. As clear as the answer may seems, Aex heart chills to see their relationship is going to end, anytime soon.

Mew, take some time to be alone, Ying prediction has come out to be true, Tong has never let him go, Tong would chase him, even if he has to go through hell. It moves his heart, but he doesn't know how to talk with Aex. For him Aex is too pure to be thrown away like this. He has suffered too much to deserve his love.

Several days, after rehersal and gathering song material in the studio, Aex ask Mew to have a conversation at Mew's home. After they're ready Aex then starts:

"Mew, now I see everything clear about you and Tong"

Mew can't answer, he is still shaken. He looks at Aex in his eyes

"Sorry Aex, sorry...I really don't know that this could go like this"

Aex wait a while, he knows now how he shall do

"Mew, I now have the answer..."

Mew gets enigmated

"Once I ask you who you love... Now I know who you truely love"

Mew is not able to respond, he feels a deep guilt in his heart.

"Aex, I'm sorry to have hurt your feeling"
Is what Mew manage to say.

"Don't be Mew, the first time I declare my love for you, you have already told me you still love him. It's on my risk to love you, as secondary love for you"

"Aex, I don't want you to feel that way, I want..."

Aex makes the sign for Mew to hold his words,

"I know from the beginning, I will compete against him, even that didn't discourage me to love you. I didn't give up on you because my feelings for you is true."

Mew is all over himself after all this.

"It is clear now that you are much needed by him"

"Aex, how about you? I don't want to hurt your heart..."

"No Mew, you have let me love you, even if only for a brief time, it is enough for me..."

Aex's eyes begin to gets red

"I want you to do something for me..."

Mew still lost his words

"I want you to go back to him. He needs you more than me, the answer can't get more clearer, you do still love him... HE NEEDS YOU MORE THAN I DO"

"Aex, I tried so hard not to feel you as second love"

"I've known the fact long ago. It's all right with me"

"I will hurt you now if I did that"

"Part of my biggest love for you is... To let you be happy... If you're happy with Tong, that would makes me happy to see you happy"

"Aex, I can't do that... You're too good to be treated this way"

"No, Mew, I know what I'm doing. I will be fine."

Aex waited a bit

"Mew, thank you for your love, for have let me love you is the most beautifull things ever to happen to me. I will always love you and wish for your happiness with ..."

Aex can't go on. He cries... He has no other alternative, he has seen the truth. Mew reach Aex and hug him... They are sad for they know it would be the last time they share the time as lover, share the happiness, the joy, laughter.

Upon discussion with them separately, Ying has no other advise, she knows from beginning, Tong has never let Mew alone, he has his reason why all the absence, the waiting. She slso saw, how Tong desparately chase Mew, not able to lose him, she got confused too as Mew about to take Aex, said she no, Mew hold himself too deep in the misery, had she said yes, Tong won't get chill with this.

erickhidayat

Chapter 13. Done


Mew still feels unrest with Aex's retreat, and the need to be lead the way for Tong. It is two things happening at the same time, both are shiftings Mew's mind. Many things swirling inside Mew's head, helping Tong, how to face Aex in the future activity, the sadness of having left Aex, all are equally pressing his vurnerable heart. Good for Mew, Ying has been always the best friend who can be the mirror and someone to give warmth to his lonely house, since he insisting stay at his late grandma's house instead living with his parents.

The next band meeting is scheduled this late afternoon, and through the day, he keeps his mind agitated with the thought of seeing Aex for the first times since the conversation.

The next day, at the studio, Aex is behaving normally, although a hint of Aex's sadness is still visible. He doesn't show any over reaction, although they surely need time to heal the wound. Aex talks to Mew quite normal, and Mew tries to be open to him too.

The producer has gather almost one album full, saying still needs some one or two track to complete the album, and Mew is asked to bring at least one song material to make the album contains enough tracks. The existing songs has been recorded, mixing process is on the way, soon after completion, the album will get mastering, sent for distribution.

Meanwhile, Mew is now free to go back for Tong, since Aex has encourage him to do so, his way becomes easier.

The next day, Mew make his way to the rehab center without Sunee, thinks he would like to have some privat moment and be free to talk to Tong.

"Tong..."
Mew's sweet voice tries to wake Tong. Tong awakes, smile uplon his lips to greets him back.

"Mew, how are you?"
Tong's voice still sounds feeble, due to his weakened body. Mew still can barely belief to see Tong in his current condition, thin, pale, like someone Mew needs to watch over.

"Mew, all this time I've been dreaming you have let me down, left me alone"

"Tong, I'm sorry to have caused you this misery"

"Mew, I got panicked as you told me you belong to someobe else"

"Don't get sad, Tong, I'm now yous completly"
Mew say these words with a kind of relieving, able to mean every words he says.

"Are you still Aex's?"

Mew shake his head

"We, Aex and me, had a talk, he... Let me go to take care of you"

"He still loves you doesn't he?"

"...He sacrifies his for your sake..."

That sentence touch Tong's heart.

"He did that...for me? I need to thank him some day"

"It's okay, Tong"

"Mew, I' sorry to have done this,I can't afford to lose you, I took the drugs... There can see you, at least I'm not alone"

Mew have to surpress his emotion, to hear Tong's journey through the hell just for him.

"Tong, it is different now, I'm real here, I'm with you now"

"Mew, I'm not sure how my mom would say to our love..."

Mew smile

"Aunt Sunee has talk to me about us. She now seems to understand about us, she already gives us her yes"

Tong can't be more happier, for the first time he now get the full road for Mew, knowing that nothing gonna stop them now.

"I promise, I'll get cured, I wanna be the one for you"

So many words are unspoken, but beyond all what they have said, they now can reclaim each other.

With Mew by his side, Tong does his best to do the rehab. Slowly Tong restore his self esteem, which was damaged upon taking the drugs, making him becone the victim of his own live. Now, he is determined to be what he was once, Mew's protector. Councelling by councelling goes, restoring his self image, although the part of becoming his true image is forever marred by this dark chapter, which pose a risk of going back to the world with a feel of defectness like a broken vessel. To this, the concellour counter Tong's thought to see that this process as a way to get mature, with a long detour of the course of his life, and get back to the track with new naturity, more robust and more immune against similar type of temptation in future's crisis.

Time heals the wounds slice by slice, the slow detox process is on the way to get successful, Korn meanwhile regain his self esteem and restart his business and taking care of his family, let Sunee get her time for herself.

Several month after the things starts to get better, Tong is allowed to go home. Back at home, Tong tries to gain back his life and continue his study, and catch up his delayed semester. Tong has warned himself to be cautious with whom he now get together with. He is more selective with his friend, try as much as possible to get home, while Sunee isn't anymore too over protective with him, knowing Mew would be with him, guard him. At this time, Tong starts to spend more time at Mew's home, once in a while Mew is invited to spend overnight at Tong's home.

One thing more to do for Tong. He is determined to have a talk with Aex. He has heard Aex's sincere, unconditional love, his willingness to let Mew go back to him is something Tong wants to appreciate.


After several doubt moments,he dial Aex's number and they set up for the meeting that day evening.

"Aex, I want to thank you for your sacrifice, I... Don't know how to say thank you properly, but this is what I need to do..."

Aex smile, and reply

"Since the first time I felt in love for Mew, I have always known that he always love you, Tong. I know he will someday go back to you, Tong"

Tong makes a slight surprised reaction

"I didn't know that, I just know it was not right to have let Mew alone too long"

"Tong, you're lucky to be loved by Mew above every thing. It is not commom this day such a love would prevail..., don't waste it, Tong"

"Thanks Aex, I have paid his love with my suffering, I will not let him go of my hands again. By the way, are we ... friends?"

Aex smile and give Tong his hand. They shake hands as sign of friendship.

erickhidayat

Chapter 14. Done

One day, Aex come to Mew...

"Mew, I have a song material for our album, I'm not yet certain how it should be sing right now, but..."

"Show it to me Aex..."

Aex hands the sheet to him, Mew studying the material silently, several minutes passes, Mew doesn't show any responses.

"Mew....how is it?"
Aex began to get anxious.

After a while, Aex sees Mew's tears drop to the sheet.

"It's our story, Aex..."
Mew reply with his eyes become tearfull. Translated into English, it should read like this:


You love someone else
While I silently love you
I behold my hope to you
As you need someone else

You choose me instead
Sacrificing your own dream
For the sake of nurturing my heart
A noble act you showed me

Chorus
Thank you for your love
Precious one I ever behold
I'll never forget all these
Those beautifull memories together


We were happy together
As I touched the heaven
You were there to hold me
Poured out the happines to us

I will always remember you
Remember your love so pure
Time has sealed it forever
For me to carry until I die

Chorus...

Bridge

How do I repay you
For given me purest love
I wish you be happy
With your true love

Chorus...

End.


"It's okay if you don't like it..."

"it's beautiful Aex, I'll take this song, I'll work on it..."
Reply Mew firmly staring at Aex. Aex smile upon Mew's decision to take his song material.

For several days, Mew is working Aex's song material, giving melody and give the suitable arrangement for the song. Mew knows, the hardest part of the song is not to work the song out, but to sing it. Mew's heart shivered upon this thought.

Not long after that, Mew is then ready to present the finished song to the rest of the band and the producer.

"This should round up our song selection for the album. The material is from Aex..."
Mew open the introduction giving clap hands to Aex, followed by others. The band cheered Aex, for Aex has rarely composed songs. Aex gets flattered.

"At first Aex hasn't give the title to the song, so I name it: (translated into English) For You

Another cheer comes from the band.

"Now I'll sing this song for you"

He starts to play the keyboard. Mew sounded soft at the first verse, going to the second verse, his eyes gets reddish, with the voice a bit shaking. In the chorus as he sings: " Those beautifull memories together", every one hears Mew's struggle to keep his voice and his emotion intact. But as Mew reach at the end of the bridge part, he can't hold himself, he starts to cry. Mew is forced to stop at the final chorus, sobbing at the keyboard. There are no dry eyes in all of them. They remain silent. The song is such a deep impact, even the producer can't say anything, overwhelmed by the song.

It takes them few moments, and the producer finally reply:

"It will be our biggest.... Hit... It's j..ust perfect for the album. I'll put it as first single."

No one has doubt about it, not in every session they come up with such a bittersweet song, especially since they know exactly what the song is about. They also get the news that Mew is back with Tong. How brave Aex to keep calm and still in same band with now his ex. But amazingly, it doesn't hurt Aex all too much, because he knows that Mew goes back to his Tong.

Mew's prediction become true. In his take, he doesn't reach beyond the bridge, leaving the rest of the track filled with cry and shaken voice. This time, the producer can't ask for more emotion, since he is serverd with it abundently, almost overflowing all over the board. Many attemps, paused, even to Aex encouragement just makes Mew become sadder. At that evening, every body was moved by Mew's struggle, share the cry together. The producer is about to give in 1 more day, for the wrap up the album is due that day. The producer this time completely understand what happened.

"Mew, let's try tomorrow, I completely understand the situation. Tomorrow will be better I'm sure"
Aod breaks in

Mew replies

"I will try once more, I promise to hold myself this time"
Mew insist

The producer seems to doubt, but still gives in

"Ok, then, let's try. From verse 3 take 15..."

All who sits at the final wrap up is dead sure, this song will be a big hit. Luck for them, Mew is managed to keep his emotion and at the same time giving the right amount of emotion. At this attempt, Mew is picturing Aex in his fever with his bright eyes, his unconditional love, his protection, his cheerfulness, his final gift... The freedom to go back to his other half, Tong. Mew manages to fill the track with the perfect dosis of soul, to let the song take flight, to touch every soul, who believes in love, and finally Mew has reached the end of the track with his very soft voice, beautifull and deep.

Everybody cheers for the completion, the producer can't be happier with the result. Meanwhile Mew is still in the voice room, let his emotion go this time, get caught so deep in the song. It is the first time the band see Mew breaks down like this, they approach Mew, while Aex hug him and say

"It's all right Mew, you have sung beautiful. It's all right"

Mew keeps hugging Aex so tight, feel sorry to have left Aex, such a pure love, unconditionally for him.

"I'm sorry Aex, I'm sorry..."
Those words keep comimg from Mew's mouth, inbetween his sobbing.

"It's allright Mew, it was beautifull"
Aex reply to Mew still hugging Mew. They feel strange to see Mew in his emotion. It was their first time to see Mew outside himself

It was 2:40 am the next day as they get the recording done, and the next days the other jobs are under the tracks. Promotions, cover photos, lyrics edting, cover album layout.

The band gets the call from studio for the album introduction. They are presented with the ready cd's to be distributed to the radios, stores, etc. They are also discussing the promotion's schedule, booking for performing and many things more. Aod, the producer are wearing the happiest smile for the tought of the first single: "For You", would become a huge succes.

Within 3 weeks the song skyrocketed to the first position in he chart, hold long, the album become huge succes, live performances booked for several weeks to come with tight schedules.

The album become a huge succes, with the single "For You" remains at 1st place for many weeks. The only obstacle is for Mew to sing this song live, since the song charts number one for over several weeks since the release.

It was a tight battle for Mew to sing this song for the first time publicly, his thought wanders through Aex and Tong. Tong is present in the first live performance and Mew is a bit uncomfortable to sing the song for Aex while he is now with Tong.

At the artist room Aex asks Mew

"Mew, are you sure you can sing that song? We'll back it up for you"

"Don't worry Aex, I'll stand strong for you, for this song. It's our song afterall"

"Mew, thank you for taking my song"

"Aex, I'll give my best for this single"

They hug each other, then Aex go forth with the preparation. Not long after, Tong is allowed to gain entrance pass to see Mew.

"Tong, this one song is for Aex, I hope you understand"
Mew looks into Tong's Eye.

"It's allright, Mew, I din't have any hard feeling towards him. The talks was good, I hope we can be friends some day, he's a good guy, he deserve something from you too after all..."

The MC then announce the arrival of August band to the stage accompanied by huge cheering and handclaps. The croud immidiately yelling the song "For You". Lucky for Mew, the song is put on the last of planned concert.

Through the first half, the band is playing the existing songs from precious album. Much to their joy, almost all audience are singing along together. Through the second part, Mew's heart become unrest with the upcoming single to be performed. At the end of the concert, the promised single is about to be sung for the first time in public. Mew become agitated, it feels almost like cold shower for Mew to sing this very personal song.

"Thank you all for your love to us, August Band. I would like to give a gratitiude for you with our last single..."

The hall become enveloped by screams, peoples jumping, especially the girls. This set Mew only to be more nervous

"I will sing this song for someone special..."
Mew for a brief second takes a look into Aex's eye, seeing Aex sincere smile back to him

More shouting and screaming are heard...

As the hall gets quiet, it become creepingly too quiet for Mew to start.

He starts after he short beautiful intro, as the first words coming out from Mew, every eye is fixed towards Mew, makes him only more agitated. Through the second verse, he gains more confident, as Mew hit the chorus, every people starts to sing along, become so loud, almost covering Mew's voice. Mew struggle to keep his emotion in the painfully beautiful bride, causing more scream in the croud. Good for Mew, he's now able to control himself, reaching the end without emotional breakdown as the band initially feared. The song closed the concert, Mew still standing, holding microphone stand covering his face. He weeps. The cheerrs and shouting still very loud, makes the band singing several extra songs. Lucky for Mew who gains back his emotion. Time after time, Mew is getting able to sing it without overflow of emotion, for he has sing it meny times. His relationship with Aex remains as best friend as before

The end...

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Chapter 4

Mulai saat itu, Aex menjadi kekasih Mew. Mereka mulai terlihat sering bersama. Mereka tidak hidup bareng, tapi Aex setiap hari mampir di rumah Mew dan mulai menginap sesudah sesi studio. Dari situ teman- teman band akhirnya mengetahui karena awalnya mereka tidak mau memberi tahu status baru mereka.

Dengan Aex menjadi tambatan hati Mew, dia merasa bahagia untuk saat itu. Aex telah berjuang dengan berbagai macam cara hingga Mew mau membuka hatinya.
Aex berusaha sebisa mungkin membuat Mew bahagia, memberikan cintanya, melindunginya, mengisi kekosongan hatinya.

Mew masih menyembunyikan rapat- rapat rasa cintanya dan rindunya kepada Tong. Ia tetap berusaha supaya ia tidak memikirkan Tong, namun pada saat yang tepat, ia tetap masih membayangkan Tong pada posisi Aex. Bahkan tidak mungkin ia sesekali mengharapkan itu. 'Kalau aku menunggu lebih lagi...' itulah yang ia fikirkan. Saat ia sendirian, di tempat tidur pemikiran itu muncul dengan sendirinya.

Waktu pun berjalan. Mew sudah mulai mampu menerima sosok Aex sebagai cintanya. Ia akhirnya mampu menepis pemikirannya tentang Tong, dan memberikan hati dan jiwanya kepada Aex.